Patience

Today I find myself in need of quotations and affirmations on patience. So, I looked some up.

http://www.coping.org/growth/patient.htm
http://www.quotationspage.com/subjects/patience/
http://thinkexist.com/quotations/patience/

That helped, I think. Next I would like to do something positive and peaceful. Maybe with DH, but if not, then perhaps Yoga or some low-key gaming.

Present and O-counted for

I landed my darkest line ever on an OPK, complete with twinges in the appropriate region on my right side. It's all in the hands of the Universe now! I'm feeling pretty happy.

I'm temping again, with a fair amount of regularity. I suspect a temp spike tomorrow morning.

My back has been tweaked :( For reasons I cannot fathom, DH is philosophically/ideologically opposed to chiropractors. He said he'll be more active with me if I can avoid going to a chiropractor. So, maybe I will make use of that and we'll go for walks more often. We don't live in the most walkable neighborhood, but there is a state park 20 minutes away. I have grand visions of us cross-country skiing, or some such. But, I'm getting ahead of myself. :)

Mario Kart Wii is a great passtime, and while it seems to boost the heartrate on occasion, it doesn't count as exercise!

I still live

Here I am, alive! I guess there hasn't been much news on the TTC front. Mostly, I have had some extremely busy weeks at home and at werk. We had a federal funding period to get ready for, but now that has blown over I'm much less stressed.

Its just in time for O and BD. I'm not sure I've O'd just yet, my temps are still lowish but I've gotten progressively darker lines on the OPK. If I had to guess, I'm O'ing nowish and my temp will spike tomorrow morn.

I'm crossing my crossables and feeling various shades of hopeful. I'm also piloting extreme quantities of hamsters through the air. I'm addicted, my longest flight was over 300 feet. http://www.digyourowngrave.com/flight-of-the-hamsters/

I'm about halfway through Wicked. I was expecting something a bit more congruous with the Wizard of Oz. The adult content threw me at first. Once I wrapped my brain around Wicked on its own merits I've been enjoying it much more.

The weight of the wait

So, the title says it all. The waiting game begins anew. I am waiting for my OPKs and probe covers to arrive. The words "probe cover" sound so... sordid. It brings to mind things either anal or alien, and neither one sound like something I'd willingly buy and bring into my home. But, the probe covers are coming, nonetheless.

I'm in pretty good spirits, I've put my Wii gym to work twice this week after months of stasis. Wii Fit Yoga is doing my lower back quite a bit of good, maybe I won't need to see a chiropractor after all. In addition, Wii DDR is actually quite fun. It makes me feel like I'm dancing, but with helpful arrows to keep me from tripping over my own feet.

I have ONE beef with my virtual gym. If I could change just one thing it would be adding some sort of continuous mode. :( Neither the Wii Fit, nor Wii DDR has a continuous mode where you can go from activity to activity (poses in the case of yoga, or songs in the case of DDR) without the system stopping and giving you a grade. It gets annoying. Maybe someday when I feel confident enough with the Yoga poses I'll just do them on my own and flow from one to the next. No such solution for DDR...

Oh well, I paid enough for my Wii gym, I think I'll just get over it. :)

CD1

AF is here with a vengeance (meaning, with cramps). Because my cycle has been less than regular the last 2 months, I'm going to start temping again. I'll probably buy more OPKs too.

Before I start temping, I need to buy some of those sleeves for my BBT. Washing it daily is a pain, not washing it daily is icky... Only, I can't remember what they are called or where I saw them last. I know they don't have them at the same online locale where I buy the OPKs. Though, I don't understand why they wouldn't sell them!

I think I'll also see a chiropractor for my lower back issues. I read an article somewhere that mentioned back issues and TTC. The chiropractor at the benefits fair gave me a brief prodding and said I really need help (big surprise). I liked her "backside" manner, so I think I'll schedule an appointment. I also asked around at the benefits fair about ART. None of the plans available to me would cover ART, so I really hope it isn't needed.

I'm bummed. Not tearfully bummed yet, but acting like a whiny 12yr old. DH encourages patience. I'm anxious for the chocolate chip walnut coconut cookies to be cool enough to eat.

Not promising

I tested after work yesterday, BFN. TMI: I had started spotting yesterday, but it was extremely light. Now, it is more than spotting, still brown though. I may test again tomorrow morning if I don't have an obvious CD1 on my hands. Part of me would like to watch football tomorrow in an inebriated fashion.

So, this past cycle was my cycle of not paying attention. Part of me wants to go full bore next cycle (temp, chart, opk, drinking teas, seeing chiropractor, doing yoga, food/drink nazi, mucinex). DH thinks I should continue the laissez-faire method: "What? We're TTC? I thought we were just having an active sex life..."

I have been so hopeful, positive energy seems to have been with me lately on many fronts. I guess I'm not out yet, but I can't help but think of next round.

Can Has Letters!

I have been putting it off in the back of my mind... the results of my RE.5NA exam. They said it could be 6 weeks, and I almost hoped it would be even longer. But, it wasn't. The envelope in my box this morning was white and large. I couldn't remember if large was good or bad. So, I took it quietly toward my office to read it in peace, only I didn't get quite that far. The hall was empty of onlookers. Seemingly of their own volition, my anxious fingers broke the seal.

I slid some papers from the envelope. A few words flashed in front of my eyes, "pleased to inform..." Wait, they wouldn't be pleased if I'd failed right? My gaze skipped further down the page, "Congratulations!"

As the reality settled in, a huge weight lifted from my shoulders. I'd been shoving my fear of the results to the back of my mind for weeks, only to have my mind wander and wish I could take back some of the answers I'd given. But, that's all over now!

Bring on persons with various impairments (especially those seeking computer access and educational assistance), I am now an ATP (Assi.stive Techn.o1ogy Professona1)!

There is an odd thing on my certificate. It says I'm an ATP effective until October 13, 20099. Does that mean I don't have to re-up my certification next year? :p